I first met HER online... the first time I saw HER on web-cam she was sitting around drinking beer with HER friends and laughing. Instantly I liked HER lol. We chatted almost every night after this... about anything and everything. We kinda became inseparable. Some days at work I caught myself wishing I was home on the computer talking to HER... its funny how you can miss a person you've never actually met in real life.
After counting down the weeks, I was in Makati... phone in hand... trying to find HER... it was like a dream!! I still remember the moment I saw HER for the first time... and HER eyes!!! The girl with the smiling face that wished me goodnight almost every night for months... was real. Officially real and standing in front of me. Still smiling. Like I was.
The next 10 days I spent with HER... we were shy at first... but then we just clicked... HER smile and warm heart made me feel safe. And HER easy going nature made for many crazy moments. But it was the simple moments I enjoyed with HER the most... sharing dinner with HER at the Tiki Bar. Laying in bed with HER chatting away at night. We shared everything together... even typhoons lol. I told HER my biggest secrets... and she told me HERs. I trusted HER not to run away. And she gave me HER heart. I thought my note had found the right person. Maybe it was just luck... or maybe it was destiny. All I know is "Note in a Bottle" had become a real life story.
Then one day she just walked out of my life... with no warning... and no real explanation. Yep... just like that.
I thought I knew HER... the girl that had talked to me for what felt like forever. The one girl I always felt safe with... HER... just walked away. And made me question what I did wrong. I did not understand... maybe a better man than me found HER. Or maybe she thought I was not coming back for HER. The truth is I had already booked my flight to come back for HER. The truth is I missed HER like crazy when I was in Thailand. The truth is I wanted to answer yes to HER question she asked me on the plane. The truth is I wanted HER to be forever.
By the time this blog finds HER eyes... and she reads this... I'll be sitting on a plane flying back to Sydney. YOU should be sitting beside me. But the truth is I could never trust YOU enough... to not just walk away from me again.
Life goes on....

GOODNIGHT SWANNY ......... one last time.